the guy with the heart who will never know love

I'll always be the guy with a shoulder to cry on
and I'm the guy who will always be a friend when I'm needed.
however I'll never be be the one to hold someones hand.
Nor will I ever know what it's like to be loved
I do love
I love passionately and deeply for some
but those are the ones who punish me
those are the ones who do not want to get close
and push me away
to find someone they can keep a distance to
every night i think of what it would be like
to hold someone in my arms
and i dream of love
but sadly i know I'll never have that one
i will hear the words I love you
but only for the moment then
they will be just a memory
just a tear
but im still their for when im needed
used and abused
the only love for me in this cruel world
is just knowing people know im their
wether for my last dollar
or just to bum a smoke
at least they know
i care

This love seems like

It seems like everyday
i just wanna say
something from the heart
something sweet
something deep
and it seems everyday
in my own little way
that i fall
very fast
very hard
into love
which makes it seem
like it's easy
when in reality
it's the hardest
thing I've done
to find this perfect love
which will lead
to you and me
forever and always
for i know that you
are my only one
true love
and no matter what
i will not run
only stand by your side
until the day that we die
but never fear for
i will not be far behind

Hatred without a reason

i loved you
and you hated me

I tried to inspire you to live
You tore me down like the twin towers on 9/11
without a reason

everything i gave
only seemed to build your hatred
you threaten me
if it was legal
i think you would have
killed me

but know unfortunately
I did love you
not just love
true love
so no matter how much
you hate me
i still love you
in fact i love you
as much as you hate me
i am sure you will never know why
as i will never know why you hate me
but i have come to relize
for both of us it is true
we never needed a reason
but as i am traped to know i love you
i am letting go saying good bye and
moving on good bye true love
and though you wish me dead
i wish you the best
and the last words i said to you were true
i hope some day my lost love
that you learn to be happy

So I have contacted a psychic

i asked a psychic to look into my current relationship and the reading may come out though it may come out otherwise i will keep you all posted here is my reading

*Note: 4 months kept popping into my head.

I saw that this is a new relationship. There is still a long way to go. You feel at peace with her. She is of the light and charming. You are of the dark and wise. You are in touch with the divine. The relationship is based on spiritual strength.

Truth and intuition are major factors in the relationship. Allow your intuition to guide you and temper it with truth you already know. I see a period of loss where you will want to withdraw from her but she will be your hope and guiding light. The emotional bond you are looking for will come from this. The physical bond will come as the relationship grows.






I Will not sit back and only hope for the best

you will always have all my heart

right now you seem like
you want to leave
but take this with you
when go know that
i am here
for when you find you are alone
and need someone near
I'll be here
and when you need
someone to Liston
my ears will always be
wide open for your cry's

because you will always have
my heart

I never thought i could fall in love alone
and even though we share a home
i know that you haven't fallen
and I'm always alone
but i'll never follow
you where you go
but where you go i wish you the best
and i hope i hope you can find happiness
i will always be here in the cold
with or without you
I'll be here and when you need me and
I'll be here waiting for your call

because you'll always have
all my heart

My depression

I hold a dark secret
because i am so far from you
this secret brings darkness
into my heart
darkness that stabs
and jabs pain into me.

This secret is depression
and makes me cold to know
that you do not care
that's why i don't let you know
that inside theirs a tear
so i may lesson the pain
lying to myself pretending
you just don't know

however my love for you
is nothing but hope
that one day
you will come and embrace me
to warm my heart
and melt this cold depression
i am much to weak to run
and much to tired to argue
but just strong enough to
keep this secret
and awake enough to
guard it with my life

Love is not for me

You made me out to be
more then I could be.
You made me strong
when I was weak.
then you decided to leave
with all hope abandoning me.
but you showed me the truth
and now I see
that love is not for me

Like a roaming storm in the night
I am much to restless to stay and fight
I have learned what they say is true
love will make you weak
and bring you to your knees
that is how I was deceived,
but now I can see
that love is not for me

Your love brings me down
it's why I always frown.
and why I believe that
love is just not for me